Yet despite how crappy and unwanted Mark made him feel the past month for this stupid plan, Jr. still loves him. Even though he made Jr. cry himself everynight to sleep for the past month, Jr. Still loves him. Though Mark brought up every insecurity that Jr. thought he had dealt with and over came when he debuted in JJ project; the insecurities that he wasn't handsome enough, or talented enough, or smart enough, or good enough for anyone. He still loves Mark. No matter how self destructive he has became of Mark, because he worried Mark would hate him or will be disgusted by him. Jr. still can't stop loving Mark and he is so angry and frustrated that he can't do anything about it. Jr. had never let anything or anyone change who he was; he didn't let no fan, no hater, no skeptic, no saesang. No one period has ever made Jr. change himself or put himself down. Then Mark came along and now Jr. doesn't even recognize who he is any more.... He feels like he giving into the qualities he has tried so hard to mask and he is losing the battle to his emotions and insecurites.